`What i don't know won't kill me*_

Saturday, June 24, 2006

11:23 PM

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a post/tag on e person's tagboard exclaiming that they've been tagged.
4. Start your post with "i have been tagged!"

Favourites
Colour: Green, Purple
Food: er..i dont really have any particular favs..um chicken baked rice maybe?
Song: What's left of me, All My Life, Indescribable, Savin' Me
Movie: ummm.... X Men, Spiderman, A walk to remember, Love actually, quite a lot.
Sport: hmm. i would love to swim. Sadly, i can't.
Day of the week: Saturday! coz it's a weekend and the only day i get to sleep in!
Season: Spring
Ice Cream:Rocky Road

Current
Mood: restless, tired
Taste: i'm not eating anything right now
Clothes: Black shorts, Red Camp shirt
Desktop: A beautiful landscape pic i got off DeviantArt
Toe Nail Colour: er..i didnt paint it. Too lazy.
Time: 11.34pm
Surroundings: I'm at home la. So it's just computers and Tv and tables around me.
Annoyances: Just kinda frustrated with the situation right now.
Thoughts: I want my phone back!! ( It's confiscated for 2 days : ( )

Firsts
Best Friend: Melissa Quek
Crush: hmm....i think it was some actor(Michael) in the "3 ninjas" movie. Was my favourite movie at that time.
Movie: A disney movie...Beauty and the Beast i think.
Lie: The earliest i can remember was when i was 5 yrs old. Lied to my friend that i didnt know where her gemstone was, when it was with me. But hey, i gave it back later.
Music: i seriously can't remember.

Lasts
Cigarette: Excuse me, i wouldn't want to be sent to my grave at a much earlier date, thanks.
Drink: um......Ice Milo..
Car Ride: David's.
Crush: This would be the last place i'll tell at.
Movie: X Men 3! I still think Angel rocks. I don't care if u guys think he's a pidgeon *glares at Spencer*
Phone Call: Juls
Last Cd Played: Compilation of Christian Rock songs.

Have you ever
Dated one of your best friends: umm..nope
Broken the Law: Everyone would have jaywalked at least once in their lifetime.
Arrested: Nope.
Skinny-Dipped: No la! I'm very shy..
Been on TV: Yep! But only for a split sec. On National Day heh.
Kissed someone you don't know: of course not la! who do u take me for huh?

Things
You're wearing (5 items): Ear studs, Contacts, Ring, Shorts, Shirt
You've done today (list 4): Made french toast with Al and Juls, walked around Heartland, eat, read, draw money
You can hear right now(list 3): The sound of Ace Young's voice from my mom's computer, Msn alerts, my music
You do when you're bored: find something or someone to occupy my time.

PEOPLE TO TAG: Cherie, Daryl, Kelly!

heh...Now i'm really bored.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

1:07 AM

Hey guys! Sorry for taking so long to blog, i've been really busy for the past few days, and everytime i wanna blog, i really don't know how exactly to put my feelings into words... I do have a lot of things to talk about, like how as I'm walking to church or someplace else, i get this sudden inspiration to blog certain issues, but by the time i get home, the inspiration just wears off.

YES camp was really good, as it was a different -and a much better experience- from the previous YESs, in that the Holy Spirit was a gentle and abiding spirit, and the experiences weren't overly dramatic. It didn't put me on an emotional high too, i didn't feel sooo unreasonably happy or excited, know what i mean?
Maybe it's because i wasn't a facilitator this time, so i felt more left-out, which is good in a way, coz i had more time to open my ears to listen to His voice and reflect on my relationship with God. Which i realised, wasn't as close as i have always imagined. In making MY various decisions, i left Him out, tried to take control over MY life, to follow MY desires and wants. I didnt trust Him enough to believe that he has great plans for me, that he alone knows what's best.

Throughout the camp, i was bogged down with feelings of extreme negativity, getting upset over silly little things that weren't really issues, come to think of it now. All i could think about was how hurt i was when someone snapped at me, not realising that they themselves were stressed and me adding on to it was definitely not helping at all. I was being self-centered as usual, forgetting the feelings of others.

Later on Daniel and Matthew shared with me on how what i felt on recon night (coz that was the night that i esp felt very, very tired and just plain down), was a result of people rejecting God's love when it was pouring down on them, and all around. That rejection was reflected back to us and so we had a taste of how God felt when His children weren't ready to surrender to Him.
Maybe some of you might not agree with this, but anyways, that opened my eyes. You see, if what i felt that night was just a small fraction of His feelings, can you even fathom how sorrowful He must have felt when we weren't ready to let Him into our hearts! Just like how i refused to let Him be the center of my life made him sad too. It's a terrible feeling, i tell you. I cannot even imagine how deeply He loves us to feel that way for us. I really thank God for opening my eyes with that experience. It is easier said than done, letting God into our lives and all, but i think trying is a start, right?

But then again, everytime we get this desire to want to do something good, obstacles always come our way, that leaves us torn in the middle of facing them and making tough decisions (which also mean having to grow up quickly where this is concerned), or just running away from them. I'm not talking about those crushes and stuff like that -That i can deal with- but issues like being left with no choice but to take more responsibility, where matters of the family are concerned. It's really hard to put aside your own decisions you know.

Right, i'll blog about this some other time then. Need to catch up on some sleep. : )

Thursday, June 08, 2006

9:49 AM

I don't understand why computers in offices have to be connected to one big machine. Right now, i can't access any of the important files or my lotus email as the server is down. And the calls can't get through to the voice mail. I find it kinda silly that everything's all connected to the stupid server room. Just because the aircon in that particular room is down, the server got overheated and tripped.

Why can't they get a server that doesn't overheat easily? it will make things so much easier. And since i'm the admin, they pressurized me to get the aircon guy to come down asap, which is not easy ok! i had to be the bad guy once again.

It's ridiculous, really. Looking at my working colleagues getting all flustered over the big server. Not that i'm not doing that as well.

Heard my last working day's on the 27th June. Frankly, i can't wait for that day to come. I'm sick of handling the problems around here.

Monday, June 05, 2006

11:19 PM

I finally managed to escape from work! Took half day leave today cause my colleagues kept telling me i looked sickly and pale and wasn't as lively as usual. Even that lady who keeps pmsing on me told me to take mc. So of course, i seized the opportunity and went home after lunch. Heh, i'm gonna take leave tomorrow too, like i said i would.

And for the 1st time in months, i had a nice nap in the afternoon, before heading down to church for evening mass, which is also something i haven't done in a while : ) Had dinner with Spencer, David, Andre, Samuel and Rene. Those guys are crazy man; them and their antics. But in a nice way heh. Some of us headed down to the park later. They went about talking about stuff that guys normally talk about, i didn't really say much coz half the time i couldn't catch what they were discussing. They used it against me though hmph. I won't say much, except that i seriously got 'suaned' so many times today.

I am gonna sleep late tonight, cause i'm not working tomorrow, haha! Hmm...I should have rented a dvd from video ezzy.

Friday, June 02, 2006

9:33 AM

I really shouldn't be here working today.... My head's throbbing and my flu's worsened. But then i can't possibly take mc when i'm gonna call in "sick" next tuesday and will be on leave on the 15th, 16th (yes camp) and 21st(electone exam...and i'm not even prepared). Sigh.

Anyways, the main purpose for my blogging today is to say this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPENCER!!! :)

May u have the time of your life today, with great friends to share it with you. And may your wish come true too, you know what i'm talking about haha. Have a great year ahead!

I'm sorry I can't celebrate your birthday, though i really want to. I bet u guys will have fun tonight eh? I'm missing out, sadly. Oh well. Update me about it k? : )